Lightening of the Load

“Hold the light. Keep it all inside. Keep up the fight. Now that there is an end in sight. Treading water. Can’t hold on much longer till my hand goes under.”

 
Keeping the Buddha Path
 
Today was an up and down kinda day. Details aren’t important, just know it was a good news/bad news kinda day. So, as I sit here with my tired eyes starring at a blank screen, my head spinning in a mountain of decisions, and my 17 year old Beagle barking his sharp bark, I ask for some guidance. I look into that part of myself that believes in the faith of what is meant to be will be. I use my thoughts and my energy to ask for patience to get through the situation, and strength to carry the weight of its outcome. As I quiet my mind, and press play on the new Newton Faulkner album I’ve been dying to listen too, the words above are the first I hear.
 
I’ve always had this thing with music. When I feel I need guidance, direction… just some help, it is a place that I derive that from. All my inspiration comes from music. Every story I write starts with a particular album or playlist. Every time I have felt my faith weaken, lyrics pop up when I least expect it to help guide me back to the path. Even now, when I feel low, afraid and uncertain, I can find comfort and faith in the music.
 
There is one artist in particular that I made a connection with. I believe, wholeheartedly, that finding him and diving into his music saved my sanity at a time when I questioned it the most. Yeah, I’m gettin’ real now folks. There was a very crappy time, and this guy… well, saved me. Ok, so not in the literal sense, but I would most definitely feel a huge hole in my life without his music.
 

 
Granted, this is just a taste of Matthew Good. This one, Born Losers, is far and away my favorite, but a lot of his songs go deeper. On my worst days, I play a few selections from his catalog and something about it just helps me reset and move on. I don’t know… maybe it is just the fact that knowing someone else out there thinks/feels/experiences the same things I do allows me to feel a little less alone in those moments.
 
What music is it that gets you, affects you, moves you, motivates you, inspires you?

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2 Comments

  1. i too feel an incredibly strong relationship to music. Growing up the first band that really made me HEAR lyrics and truly connect with them in a deep, personal way was The Corrs. I would have to say more recently, Sara Bareilles and Paramore. I would be lost without my music. It always helps me find me to never feel alone. Does that make sense? 🙂

    • It makes perfect sense! Hearing lyrics and even the music itself that strikes a cord (no pun intended haha) with you, its such a rich sensation. You feel comforted, less lonely… because its gives you the feeling that someone else out there knows what you are feeling, and experiencing. When you are in a place where you feel alone and unsure, the music can lift you up and out of that fog.

      At least that is what it does for me 🙂

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